I've
put in chapter 4 because it involves a character everyone
is familiar with, and a character who causes immense trouble
throughout Crusader through his intense desire to regain some
degree of power and influence. Here he is, the renegade, starting
out on his course of destruction ... as only WolfStar knows
how.
Chapter
4
WolfStar
rolled over on his back and screamed. Agony knifed through his
belly, then ran down his legs in rivulets of liquid horror. He
jerked his knees to his chest and hugged them, now gasping for
breath, and trying to ride out the successive waves of pain that
coursed through him.
Raspu's
poison, he supposed, or Mot's, or Barzula's, pumped into him during
successive rapes.
"Ahhh,"
he groaned, and rolled over, weeping with the pain and the loss
and the overwhelming humiliation. Humiliation, not so much from
the demonic rapes he'd been forced to endure, although that was
part of it, but from the realisation that everything he'd done,
and everything he thought himself master of, during the past
few thousand years had been a lie. He'd been a tool and a pawn
as much as the sweatiest and stupidest peasant, and now he'd been
disposed of as easily.
The
Maze - and its own master, the Star Dance - was the hardest and
cruellest master of all.
WolfStar
- Enchanter-Talon, feared by every Icarii in existence.
WolfStar
- crazed murderer, loathed by scores of generations of Icarii.
WolfStar
- Dark Man, Dear Man, friend and ally of Gorgrael the Destroyer.
WolfStar
- lover and ultimate destroyer of Niah.
WolfStar
- manipulator of the entire world and all who lived within it.
WolfStar
- utter, utter Fool.
A
rat ran over his right foot, scratching deeply into his flesh
as it went, but WolfStar paid it no heed. Over the past hours
(days? weeks?) countless creatures had scrambled over him, trampled
him, urinated on him, nibbled, bit and tasted him, and yet none
had done him the kindness of killing him.
All
WolfStar wanted to do was die ... escape the utter humiliation
his existence had become. But no thing or no-one would grant him
death in this world of death made incarnate - this damned, cursed
Maze. Bleakness swarmed constantly over him, and madness probed
intermittently at his mind: the hours when the Demons raged drove
him to the brink of insanity, but never, never (oh please, stars,
let the horror tip me over!) beyond into the oblivion of total
insanity.
Why?
Why couldn't he become one of these mindless creatures that swarmed
incoherently and incontinently through the Maze? All WolfStar
wanted to do was to become mindless, because then he would feel
no pain.
WolfStar's
fingers scrabbled over his chest, feeling again the clotting blood
of Caelum. He gagged, sickened by the feel, as also by the damned
persistence of the blood.
He
couldn't wipe it off, it wouldn't go away, it wouldn't even dry
out to a scab that he could scrape off.
WolfStar
was marked by Caelum's blood, and he wondered if that was what
protected him.
What
had happened to the boy? Why had he walked into the point of Qeteb's
blade?
WolfStar
had turned the horrific moments of Caelum's death over and over
in his mind, and yet he still could not understand them. What
had gone so wrong? Why hadn't Caelum fought back?
Or,
at the least, why hadn't he made an effort to escape?
WolfStar
could crawl no more. He propped himself up against a wall, holding
his belly with one hand, dragging air into his lungs.
Suddenly
Caelum walked about the corner and came directly towards him.
He
had a beatific smile on his face.
"Caelum
StarSon!" Qeteb screamed, and stood in his stirrups and raised
his sword.
Caelum,
now directly before WolfStar, turned and stared at the horror
approaching, stared at the rearing, plunging creature above him,
and at the Demon screaming on its back.
"Oh,
how I love you," he said.
"No!"
Qeteb shrieked, driven beyond the realms of anger, not only by
Caelum's words, but by the serene expression on his face.
The
Demon drove down his sword.
WolfStar
could not believe it. As the sword plunged downwards, Caelum held
out his hand and seized the blade.
It
made not a whit of difference.
The
sword sliced through Caelum's hand and plunged into his chest,
driving Caelum back against WolfStar, who grunted with shock.
Qeteb
leaned his entire weight down on the sword, twisting it as deep
as he could go, feeling bone and muscle and cartilage tear and
rip, seeing the bright blood bubble from the StarSon's mouth.
What
had the boy been doing, wandering through the Maze with a beatific
smile on his face while all the Demons of Hell rode at his heels?
"There
had been magic worked there," WolfStar whispered, inching his
way further down whatever dead end of the Maze he'd chosen this
time. "An enchantment ... Caelum was caught in enchantment ...
but whose? Whose?"
Suddenly
WolfStar was angry, and it chased away all his bleakness and humiliation.
Someone - besides the Demons - had worked an enchantment on Caelum
... who had control of enchantment in this Star Dance-less world?
And
if someone did have control of enchantment, how could WolfStar
work that to his own will?
"Who
are you?" he whispered, now dragging himself along with one hand
while the other held his ruined belly in vaguely one piece. "Who
are you?"
He
repeated the sentence, over and over, making of it a mantra. He
repeated it for hour after hour, dragging himself through the
Maze, ignoring the countless creatures - once-animal and once-human
or Icarii - that flowed about and over him. He continued to repeat
it through the Demonic hour of dusk that probed at his mind, and
he continued to repeat it through the night until it almost drove
him mad in itself.
At
dawn, as the light - and madness - broke over the Maze, WolfStar
realised something.
He
was not mad. And he was not dead. Neither madness nor Demon (nor
demonic-creature) had touched him, or even taken any interest
in him. He had survived, for whatever reason and for whatever
purpose.
And
he had to have a purpose, because without a purpose he was a nothing
but a pawn.
A
glow of light filtered down through the stone walls of the Maze,
lighting the flagstones before him.
A
million symbols flowed over and through the stone. The Maze, taunting
him.
"Damn
you! Damn you!" WolfStar whispered, furious and humiliated that
the Star Dance and the Maze had manipulated him for so many millennia.
From the heights of power, the glory days of thinking that all
Tencendor danced to his manipulations, WolfStar had fallen to
being nothing but a useless puppet crawling through the stone
corridors of the Maze.
A
Talon-Enchanter with no more power than an ant.
"No!"
No,
he could not bear that. There was power out there somewhere -
he could feel it! - and that meant there was power available for
the taking.
And
he would take it. No-one would laugh at WolfStar!
"Who
are you?" he whispered over and over as he crawled hand over hand
over the rough stone. "Who are you?"
As
crazed birds tumbled through the sky above his head, so plans
and intrigues tumbled through WolfStar's mind.
There
was power out there, and he would find a way to control it.
"Who
are you? Who are you?"
WolfStar
crawled for hours, lost in his own thoughts, his anger giving
him strength when he should have collapsed, until eventually he
thought he heard something whisper. He raised his head, and stared.
Then
he laughed, knowing hope for the first time in many days.
Ten
paces ahead rose the gateway into the wasteland.